Reclaiming my first life.

It kind of sneaks up on you over time. The slow theft of your real life hours by the time spent in second life. It starts with being on later at night to hang with friends after events wind up at the Wharf and then you are later and later as you start to hang with your friends just waking up in Europe. And then the compulsion to log on when you wake up to deal with all the IMs you received when you are asleep (you never know when something maybe urgent lol) Soon you are in world in all your free time imagineering the venues, fixing things that have gone wrong or just never worked, chatting with people and fending off dozens of IMs about when the next event is and who is djing. 

In all of this Finnegan is winning out and my real life persona is fading into the background. I am really starting to miss me, the real me. I have decided that I need to spend more time in my real life and a fair bit less in my second life. I am excited to do this and regain my composure and tranquility. I will not be quitting or taking time off of SL, just spending more quality time in RL.

I hope that this will also allow me to enjoy my time inworld more. I was hanging at the Wharf on Friday and resenting having to be there and it continued on Saturday. I didn't have the sense just to log off and go read or sleep. I became aware I was acting very erratically on both evenings and quite possibly offended some people and some of them very close to me. I did apologize to them but it really made me question myself and look at how I was behaving. I didn't like the answers.